Hi Ama
The single greatest tragedy of my life happened on this day
The very comfort of my soul and home of my love gone from this world
Thank You Ama
I love you Ama
I miss you Ama
You deserve to hear this from me
My childhood was filled with luxury of your love and warmth of your care that an ordinary home felt like a castle to me. Everyone I met will tell you story of my confidence and smiley face but only few knew that you are the reason behind. I have taken so much for granted and you have asked absolutely nothing in return but offered everything on the table for me. You forgot your existence to build the best life under heaven for me and you honestly achieved in doing that. I have developed a habit of running to school STD to ring you every time I couldn’t face life’s harsh truth or I want to boast about my small victories. You made me feel seen, known and remembered. I felt like I can rule the world without even taking a step outside. Your hands were present in every step of my life, so much so that a new pair of shoes in the winter or a chowmein in school canteen during break were result of your sweat and blood. I miss your handmade aloo momo and bhaktsa markhu. I was blessed with the best mom who single handedly raised me after leaving everything behind in Tibet. The old familiar life and every face you knew became a distant memories in order to provide a better life for me and brother. Only when I look back from where I stand now, I can see a glimpse of your sacrifice which is enough to make me cry like a baby. You were a lady of few words and strong action. You approached life humbly and fiercely at times when required with a single driven purpose of raising your kids to the fullest of your potential. I am beginning to realise and discover every unsaid message you left behind throughout your life by setting examples.I inherited my mother’s humble heart and sincere soul. The slow and steady test of time has somehow pushed me closer to my mother’s nature and how many of her advice suddenly started to make sense with each growing days. I have tremendous respect for women because of this amazing lady who guided me and I try to meet a mother in every woman I meet. I never shy away from sharing your story to true companions in life and you became a secret comfort within my soul. Your death became the single greatest tragedy of my life from which I will never fully recover because the loss was too far great for anything on earth to replace with. You are simply irreplaceable by any mortal or beyond. I failed to express my love for you with the low standard of my understanding when I was younger and you didn’t get the chance to hear me say how much I love you and you mean to me. I with every fiber of my being want to say that I miss you and I try to discover a piece of you in every person I meet. You left me right before I finished my final year in school and didn’t get the chance to see where I will land in life. You said that you have faith in me and I promised you few things. I have achieved most and still striving for more. One thing I clearly remember you telling me which became a core value of mine was that to never become a greedy person and to always love everyone equally. I have always centered my life’s direction with values you installed in me and I am proudly happy to say that I have become less heard on the streets but louder to people I interact with in real life. I speak your message through my existence and think of this world in your love. I am my mother’s son and her cute prince. You can say what you want but my mom will always enjoy seeing the reflection of her in me and I will forever whisper her story each time a stranger admire how I was raised. My mom to me is my true God and the one who offered me this life with blessing of what a genuine love and kindness can do to a human. Without Ma, there won’t be a tale of me and I would not have experienced the richness of life in healthy mind and body.
Thank you Ama
You are part of me and I am part of you
I have no intention of becoming an instrument of change or big name in this world but my ordinary life will forever echo the beauty of my Ama in a small corner of this world 🌎
Bhu Dawa
